complicated life?!

when everyone can graduate successful, only me still need study in utar.
when i walked in utar, see my junior, suddenly feel regret y last time i not study hard?
when contact with former classmates or former roomate, i feel no hv brave 2 chat with them, scare they ask me how about ur study? how about u?
when my fren ask me about my daily life, ask my update my news, i started scare, i dunno wat can i tell them, izit tell them d truth?but i scare they look like care about me.
when they care about me, i will feel stress n sad, i dun wan others care about me like i m a looser.
i dun they dun feel like tat, but my heart will think so.
so tis few days i only stay at my new hostel in sg long alone, i dun find my fren out 2 shopping, watch movie, i got an idea 2 date them out, but lastly i not do so.
y?
i oso dunno, maybe i scare their caring eyes.......
now my life is complicated, i dunno how 2 do................